It's Through Me

He Hates His Mother But Would Never Dare Say... Most of us do.   His trust in her was betrayed when at 8 years old, she shipped him off to boarding school. There are the Mothers who are clueless and self absorbed; mothers who are so manipulative and controlling; and those who love being moms for their own selfish reasons...forget the child. "Yes, I betrayed your trust, but hey, I clothed you, fed you...I bought you a car.  I paid for your college. I gave you money when you were in need.  Yet I left you emotionally empty, longing and confused." Statistically, my guess, - homelessness has something to do with an issue with mother...not feeling loved; not feeling honored. To those Mothers who got out of abusive relationships, I'd bet the children are faring way better then those who stayed. But to those who stayed...               We go into justification…Mother really means well.           ...

We Are The Emotional Body Speaking To My Sisters, All Women Especially Women Of Color We Are The Way Show-ers Creators Without Women, No Human Being Would Exist on This Planet (Let That Sink In) Every Human Being Must Come Through Us - Women We Are The Creators Of Life! The Emotional Body Of The Planet Is All Of Ours BUT Women Have Been Carrying The Emotional Sickness and Disease For Many Millennia Feeling Guilty Because We Took An Apple - NO The Collective WE Have Been Placed In This Role A Role That Is Not Ours To Carry A Role That Allows Emotional Abuse, Physical Abuse, Sex-Trafficking, Sexual Mutilation... A Slavery Placed On Women That Has Us Turning On Each Other... In Denial Of Truth Collectively We Have To Support Each Other Not Tear Each Other Down Which Can Only Happen When We, You, Me, She Support Ourselves Individually Know Your Individual Magnificence And Beauty Your Shine Is Different Than My Shine - Celebrate That The Unique Beauty In Each...

Speak For Yourself Do Not Cast Words Of Doubt Into My Reality Speak For Yourself Do Not Cast Shadows Of Misguided Language Into My Life Speak For Yourself No Words You Can Say Have Any Power Into My World Speak Only For Yourself Because Words Have Power ! Your Words Have Power Over You! Speak Only For Yourself I Would Not Presume To Speak For You So Back Off Speak Only For Yourself I SPEAK The Words I Wish To Invoke In My Reality, My Life, My World! TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©201 9

Bitterness.  A Weed. Who's Roots Are Long And Wide Will Make Even The Kindest Person Turn Into A Fenir Eating The Very Soul Of The Person Of Whom Is It's Object Of Attention Must Be Plucked From The Deepest Recesses Of It's Beginnings Sneakily Hidden By Some, Felt By All Driving The Ego To Self-Righteousness Indignation Pluck - Aware It Grows Inside Pluck - Meditate Pluck - Sacred Study Pluck - Feel It (ouch), See It (ouch) Pluck - Release - Surrender - Let Go Give It Over (forgive) Crater Of Hollowness Be Seeded With Hope, Joy And Love New Roots Growing, Flourishing, Flowering Be The Grace By Which All Bitterness Is Released and Transformed Into Peace  All That Is For Thee Will Be It Is So TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©201 9

Love Me I love me enough to know that your being rude and hurtful is not loving   Take myself out of the space and situation Love Me I love me enough to see the bitterness that pervades your being  The guilt you feel toward yourself translating into hatred What do you feel guilty about? PS. Guilt is the only energy on earth that never dissipates  Time for you to take on alchemy to transform your feelings of guilt into hope and joy Love Me I love me enough to love myself no matter what's thrown my way I have faith in me Love Me I love me enough to listen to the signs my soul gives to my body …pink eye, a cold, a cut, a fall, bug bites, negative balances, blocks in flow …indications that it is time to move on   Love Me I love me enough to ask the Divine Beloved, God, to transform my existence  Where love radiates through every pore of my being Love Me I love me enough to accept what is, knowing it is all fo...

~BETTER A DRY CRUST WITH PEACE AND QUIET THAN A HOUSE FULL OF FEASTING, WITH STRIFE….Proverbs 17:1~ As I Sit Here Eating My Crust...  I recognize the Peace in this Space. I recognize the Ease into the Divine. I recognize, the Fun and Freedom -of the people I'm meeting and spending time with. I recognize the Beauty around Me. No longer being stomped on figuratively and literally (she stomped around upstairs in the room above while I tried to sleep) No longer around those that need to always talk about how important they are and their lives are (really not believing their true importance) Newsflash, we all are individually and uniquely important; therefore none of us are IMPORTANT. No longer whittling myself into tiny pieces to fit around the aroma of arrogance pervading the room. (seriously, just stop talking) The Quiet, Welcomed.   The Peace, Welcomed.   The Flow of the Divine, Welcomed. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Here Enjoying The Crust. ...

Heavy Emotional Lifting Is The Breaking Of The Generational Curses That Have Plagued The Linage Of The Family. I Am Joan Of Arc. Not In The Egotistical Sense, But This Is The Battle, This Is The War, All The Scars, Pains, Bruises, Cuts Are Of The Emotional Nature. It Is Mine To Break, If I So Chose, And I Chose To. First Within Me. Break The Conditioning; Returning To Love. This Is Not For The Weary, This Is Not For Those Who Want To Play It Safe Pretending Their Lives Are Better Than Yours Because They Follow Societal Norms. I Promise You Their Lives Are Not. I Have Witnessed The Dysfunction Of The Systemic Denial Of Truth Within These Walls. Why Else Would They Try To Make You Feel As If Your Life Is Worthless? It Is A Reflection Of What They Feel About Themselves. Don't Play The Roles Placed Before You In Their Life Game. Play Your Part In Your Life You Are Worthy Of That Break Through Break Free The Warriors Journey Is Yours PS, "They" Do...

Spiritual Interference No More It's Done And Done. I Let You In, When You Had No Right To Even Be Welcomed. Tampering, Opposing, Prying, Trespassing, I Was Open For The Desire Of Friendship, Relationship. Done And Done. Hampering The Flow Of My Life? Why? Why Did I Do This? Why Did I Allow This? The Understanding Of God, Source And Spirit So Mistakenly Interpreted. Taught By Energy Vampires, With Interpretations To Self Serve. Now! Now, I Am Aware! Now, I Am Awake Now, I Am Alive! Now, I Am Done And Done... Thank You! TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©201 7

All These Years Giving, Sharing, Teaching, Loving You Were A Thief All These Years Thinking What Have I Done Wrong I Must Help You You Were A Thief All These Years Soul Searching, Finding, Experiencing You Were A Thief Never Once Giving Appreciation, Never Once Having Empathy Always Criticizing Always Judging Trying to Hold Me Back, Even From Myself... You Emotional Thief...You Emotional Thieves No Wonder I Thrive When I Am Nowhere Near You. I Have A Chance To Breathe ...And Heal From The Emotional Scars And Wounds ...So That I May Fly And Soar As Never Before Thank you Teachers, Counselors, Guides, And Spirits. Teaching Me To Rise Above, Rise To New Heights ...And Shine Light On Those Who Want Healing From Emotional Thieves. TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©201 7

When Divinity wakes up inside you it’s like FIRE, WATER, EARTH, WOOD, AIR, METAL… Fire roaring flames of agitation bursting into action, Water flowing into every nook and cranny of inspiration like waves, Earth fertile and nurturing feeding life into existence, Wood grounded and standing, rooted and tall, reaching for the skies, Air breathing life into the stillness into Divine activity, Metal unyielding yet yielding, strong and withstanding yet bending, to the pressures of life Anything or Anyone feeding off it Taking Space In the way of the Divinity of Your Life... Push it away, Push it away, Cast it off into the vast Ocean...to find it's Divinity within... Blessings & Love TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

Living Behind The Shadows Of Fear And Spiritual Knowledge Is Like Looking For Water While Standing In Front Of The Ocean. You Have All The Awareness, The Knowledge, The Know-With-All... But Are Too Afraid To Dive In. Today, I Dove In Again And It Felt Like I Was Swimming A Little and Drowning A Lot. I Felt Supported And Loved Feeling Deserving Of It And Undeserving Of It Waking Up To The Graciousness Of A Life Fully Lived And Expressed Now She's Awake, Stay Awake Keep Swimming TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

The Flower That Is You Preferring Sun or Shade Little Attention or Much Little Watering or Frequent Adverse Conditions or Steadiness Growing, Into The Optimal You... Planted, As A Seed... Moving Through The Nourishment of The Soil Breaking Ground Growing Closer To The Light... TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

NYC Subway @ 40th St & 6th Ave Experience All You Can Experience If You Feel Blocked In Your Experience Then Move,  Move All You Can Move If You're Not Able To Move Then Think, Think All You Can Think, If Thinking Becomes To Much Then Feel,  Feel All You Can Feel If Feeling Is Too Painful... Feel It Anyway Then Break Free... To Stand Strong And Give All You Can Give     TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

The Energy That Moves Through Is Stronger Than Before It Pushes Out the Victim It Pushes in Love It Shines Light On the Awareness of Ulterior Motives Under Sweet Smiles, Nice Gestures, And Kind Words It Sees... It Knows Healing Is Necessary, Revealing Even More So The Truth Of Self-Love Can Be Shown The Way To Itself. To Give To Love TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

Light The Way Your Candle Must Be Lit Fortunate You, Will Have Other Candle(s) Share Their Flame To Shed Light... To Help Light Your Candle... Once Lit, Keeping Your Candle Lit Is Up To You The Brightness, The Dimness, The Height, The Width... How Much Light Do You Want To Shine? Keeping Your Candle Lit Is Up To You No-One Else Is Responsible For The Light From Your Candle Keeping Your Candle Lit Is Up To You Your Candle Is Lit... Shining... Bright... Keeping Your Candle Lit Is Up To You   Your Flame Brightens, With The Light Of Other Flames Keeping Your Candle Lit Is Up To You   We All Shine Brightly Together But First, You Must Light The Way Keeping Your Candle Lit Is Up To You... TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

Are You Receiving All That Is Yours To Give Are You Tuning To What Others Are Saying About You Or To What Your Thoughts Are Saying About You Thinking About You... Sending To You... Negative or Positive,  Positive or Negative... Lift Out Of That Vibration Lift Into The Vibration of Source By Attuning Your Attention To How Source Feels About You All Beauty All Love All Joy All Abundance That Lives In You... Pay No Mind Nor Attention To Anything Other Than Source This Is The Work ...My Experience... It Is Very Simple Yet Not Easy Ease Into It... You Can Do It! And Receive All That Is Yours To Give TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

Love Is Love Is Love Is Love... Kauai Right? So Why Is Loving Seemingly Such A Chore? Are We That Far Removed From Our True Nature? Yes? Are We Looking At Others To Give Us Something That We Are Not Giving Ourselves? Yes? Are We Cut Off From The Source? Yes? Trying To Find Our Way In The Dark? Yes? Is It Perfect? Yes? Why? Because Everything Is Calling Us Back To Our True Divine Nature? The Question Is, Are You Going? ...Yes? TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

nyc Love Melts Away Dis-Ease Why Are We So Afraid To Love Ourselves? Years of Judgement, Lack of Appreciation, Persecution That's SO IN OUR FACE within ourselves and without...in the world. A Dis-Ease When Love Could Melt It Away Why Is It So Difficult To Love?   Seeking "love" From Outside Of Ourselves... Demanding Others Give Us Appreciation, Stop Judging Us, Stop Persecuting Us... It is not Love. It's the Ego's Insatiable Need To Be Fed, It's the Wounds Insatiable Need To Be Healed ...and then calling it a demand for "love, peace, or justice". Ego Is Not From Love, Yet Can Be Loved Wounds Are Not From Love, Yet Can Be Healed Through Love AND Only Through Self-Love,  Does Love Exist. When you appreciate yourself and start loving yourself,  you create the space for others love you. When you stop judging your self and start loving yourself, you create the space for others love you. When you stop persecuting yourself a...

Committing Myself To Recognizing And Releasing Then Focusing In To Authentically Feel Full Appreciation Of Life Full Happiness Of Life Full Joy Of Life The Fullness Of Every Moment Giving Everything Over To Source Watching My World Change !!! Luarca, Spain TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016

Now More Than Ever I Have To Speak Up I Have To Shake, Stir, Rouse Wake- Up, Awaken To Love The Human Virus Of Racism Never Left It Transmuted Itself Into Hidden Pockets Only To Continue To Strike Severely... No Racism Will Ever Leave This Planet Without Self Love Without Self Compassion Without Self Understanding It Is Only When One Has Love, Compassion, Understanding Can They Give It... Wake-Up, Wake-Up, Wake-Up TBali™-Live Your Beauty all original material copyright ©2016